As I market my latest spec, it came to me that I'm not just shilling a script. In a very real sense, I'm shilling myself. My voice, my words, my tone, my dreams, my creativity, my imagination, my soul, me, me, me.
It's a hard thing to accept that people may just not be interested in...me, me, me.
So why do I put myself through this agony time and time again? Am I sadist? Lord knows, I've been shit canned to the curb so many times that you'd think by now I'd be gun shy.
But no, I'm pimping myself like a ho in the hood. This is the part I hate. I really do. I don't relish this at all. Yet I remain ever optimistic that my knight in shining armor will come galloping up (or maybe drive up in his shiny foreign car).
I can't imagine doing anything else. I can't imagine not doing this. So I guess I'm stuck like a rat in a maze.
Hope springs eternal. Like kittens, puppies and fools.
1 comment:
Sadist...? No.
Masochist...? Possibly. But then, aren't all writers?
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